The World

The world is now in the early part of the 21st century and had shrink ed as a global village,where people of all races, religions and communities intermingle with each other. They move from place to place, continent to continent legally or illegally in search of jobs or as guest workers or to get residency in their host countries! Their main aim is to earn money and live happily without the troubles of internal ethnic conflicts,religious violence,bomb blasts,kidnapping & ransom taking ! When moving from their birthplace they leave their "rigid" cultural & socical living patterns behind them and enter into a different social background which is totally alien to their cultural background! In the new environment they could find anything very easily with a click of a mouse or a touch of a mobile phone! Cybersex ,sex clubs,drinks, women & gay men are there for them and they loose their virginity & chastity at an early stage in life in comparison with their asian- c...

I got a different type of experience at the Royal Mail Center,Sheffield when I worked there as a Christmas causal employee!The English people were very good and niece! In fact they are very serious in their work related matters.Now I can not remember the line -Managers' names under whom I worked but still I have got their glimpses in my memory! One line manager was very friendly to me and always called me "vivi". There was also a lady line- manager.She was very kind towards me and taught the worked related issues. At the beginning, I was asked to report for duty during daytime.The job was to sort the parcels & packets at the mail center to different mail sacks colored red,according postal codes! The international parcels were collected in separate mail sacks all together irrepective of their destinations! There were long "Bath-tub" like collection tubs with small caster wheels and they were very difficult to move from one place to another! Some times it veer...

I know that nearly sixty percent of the Asian marriages fail because they do not give importance to true love and affection, but to wealth and status to maintain their living standards! Like their European counterparts they also seek extra marital sexual encounters now a days! The parents and the elders should be blamed for the failed marriages among in Asian couples.The aim of the Asian marriage culture seem to produce off-springs rather than marital bliss or enjoyment in sex !The girls are forbidden to air-out their feelings with their husbands and husbands and elders seemed to take all decisions pertaining to sexual life!Whether the man is an impotent or not the girl would have to take the ultimate responsibility for all failures in marriage and she is requested to show veneration towards her husband!! There exists a FORCED LOVE between couples and which is the fundamental cause for break -downs and divorces in marriages!! In rare occasions this happens to men as well!They marry for...

The sex is the fundamental thing for everything to achieve in the world!The baby cries or show it's dissension if it's prevented from stimulating it's genitals! The bigger children manipulates their genital organs to get pleasure naturally and none teaches them as to how to do it !The fundamental behavior of a human being or an animal is molded by it's parentage and it's sexual relationship with others.If the sex is denied, the living creatures are frustrated and isolate themselves from the society and try to indulge it in a secret manner or in an illegal and unaccepted way!The sex maniacs and pedophiles are the creation of the society to whom they belong to! Surely a sex maniac or a pedophile would have been abused severely by a woman or by a man at an early stages of his life and he or she becomes addicted to this type of sexual pleasure innately.Only a special medical treatment could cure them and not the imprisonment. In fact imprisonment would sometimes makes t...

The meaning of what you mean by "a split personality" is scientifically defined as "a person having "multiple personality within him"! This is caused by the severe suppression of his natural behavior pattern,sensual pleasure or needs in early stages of life specially during childhood,which could have been purposely oppressed by the society mainly due to religious & social factors!! A man could become as a split personality if he had severe emotional suppression in his early stages of life. Due to this reason he may find it very difficult to attain his "mental age" as expected from a normal healthy individual. His physical age will pass as usual but not his mental age! As a result he may receive the following symptoms: Playing and having contacts with small children even though he may be an adult! May become as a pedophile in the later stages of his life! May live in oblivion and may not be interested in social gatherings and normal sexual pleasure...

I became highly religious minded at the age of forty five and started to practice yoga and meditation. I went to a Gujarathi's Krishna Temple in Sheffield whenever I had time even though I could not understand the language of the Gujarathis! The poojas are more or less the same as ours and there was no difficulty for me to concentrate on the poojas! I wanted to change my abnormal behavior and that was very painful for me in the early stages. I did severe yoga practices such as getting up early in the morning and chanting holy "mantras"and religious hymns. During those occasions I controlled my body & mind and started to see the body as merely as a" Body devoid of any senses" attached to it! Gradually I became as a "sidda"( the controller of mind). I could have been suffering due to my past "Karma"(actions) which might have continued since my re-birth! Some occultists said to me that I suffered from an EVIL during the past thirty years and...

When I came to England I had two children: one boy and a girl aged 7 & 3 years respectively. I was very lucky have a beautiful daughter and I loved her very much and she was my world. I kissed her affectionately and said good bye to her before I left to England! I wanted to earn some money in England to look after myself and my family.I instructed my wife to teach English to my children so that they may come to England one day! After I entered England I worked under a Srilankan Barrister after obtaining a work permit . At that time I was paid 3.50 pounds per hour! It was not so bad and I managed to look after myself in England! He helped me to obtain the work permit after six months of my arrival.He found my English was useful to attract the Srilankan clients who did not know English very much! Later I left him and worked days and nights to earn money. I did not want to be a fool in front of my Srilankan clique. Most of the Srilankan guys were very industrious and sent money to the...

I returned to Srilanka in year 1987 and my father told me that he finalized my marriage for a dowry of Rs 400,000 cash and an ancestral property. he said that he needed Rs 200,00 to dispose my elder sister! I did not want to give consent for that marriage because I had not even seen the girl! My father said if I did not marry that particular girl he would hang himself -up! He threatened me and asked my consent under duress. I had no other option but to agree to his suggestion. I thought that I should not have returned home. One day our family went to see the bride. She brought tea to my parents, me, and my sisters. I saw her !! I realized that my father wanted to destroy my future for the sake of money.I objected to this proposal but my father insisted that I marry her. I had no other option but to agree to this sell-off by keeping my pain inside! I was very broken! I still do not have answers,why the Asians destroy their children's future by proposing marriage for money? I coul...

When My request to go back to Oberhausen was rejected, I felt highly depressed and fed up with my studies! I decided to go to Sprottauer Str in Detmold City in North-Rheine -Westfalen state where my cousin lived with his family as a refugee to spend some weeks. In early part of 1986 I went to Bremen to visit one of my college mate,Manoharan ! Later on a sunny morning we visited the Bremerhaven(Northern sea-port in West-Germany) to see the ships enter into the harbor and leave out ! It was a niece thing to experience.The ships entered in one level of water and were taken to another water level inside the harbor by the way of pumping-in & out the water in between!When the ships left the harbor,the water level in between was raised-up to meet the sea level outside and when the ships came in the water level was raised-down to meet the sea level of the harbor inside without any serious problem!!I also visited the church in the middle of the city-center!! I returned to Dortmund after two...

On the next day evening my relative booked a ticket to Paris on my name at a railway station where the Paris bound train stops! I could not remember the name of the railway- station now since it had happened exactly twenty -two years back in January 1985!! The train ticket to Paris was very high and I was left with hundred odd Deutschmark marks in my hands. I thought that I should spend the money thriftly. My relative helped me to board the train to Paris at the station! I thanked him for his help in an unknown land.The train moved very fast and got it's speed! I was looking out from the window seeing the beauty of West-Berlin & it's high rise buildings under sodium & neon lights without knowing how my fate was going to turn-up after some minutes from there!! When the train entered the West- German territory after passing two or three stations behind, the"Bundes -Polizei"boarded the train with sniffer dogs and asked all the Paris ticket holders of Asian origin...

On January 1985, I landed in East-Germany's capital East-Berlin via Moscow! I can not remember the date on which I landed,because it happened nearly two decades ago!From Moscow it was only an hour flight by an air-bus! The air-hostesses were seemed to be Polish girls with yellow hairs & white skin! They were very pretty and smiling at me on board since I was from an Asian origin with a black hair! They were very courteous and gave me beverages & snacks during the journey.It must be around midnight when we boarded the air-bus from Moscow.I did not change the local time in my wrist watch because I was either sleeping or thrilled by the first ever air-travel to an out side destination from Srilanka !!The pilots were announcing the local weather and time through the microphone,They also explained over which continent we were flying! It was a red lettered day in my life!I took three flights to reach my destination,East-Berlin! My agent told me earlier that crossing - over to Wes...

I was born in 1957 in Srilanka where I grew -up under severe financial background.My father was a teacher by profession,so did the mother! Someone might think because both were employed I could have had a better life.No! It did not happened that way as I expected!! My father had also got a plot of paddy field in which he harvested paddy for our family consumption.However the marital relationship between my parents was not always in good shape.My father used to take toddy( a locally brewed alcohol obtained from Palmyra h tree)and hit my mother often!!I was helpless at that time to give protection to my mother.I was very small at that time,I also had two brothers and two sisters !!Even though the income was sufficient to look-after the family,my father always quarreled with my mother and the whole village knew this sordid affair between my parents! For the villagers,it was a niece scene but for us it was terrible nightmare! More or less he tortured my mother for not bringing dowry from m...

THE CHILDHOOD PERIOD IS THE BEST LOVABLE TIME FOR ALL CREATURES IN THE WORLD!! BUT I NEVER HAD A PLEASURABLE CHILDHOOD!! MY BIOGRAPHY WOULD REVEAL THIS TO YOU ! I AM VIVEKAA FROM SRILANKA!! I WAS NOT ALLOWED MY BY PARENTS TO PLAY WITH MY VILLAGE PEERS. MY FATHER ALWAYS BEAT ME AND MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS! I ALWAYS SAW HIM BRINGING A CANE TO PUNISH US! IT WAS A NIGHTMARE FOR ALL OF US!! WHAT WE EXPERIENCED WAS BEATINGS AND REPRIMANDS FROM MY FATHER. SOMETIMES I URINATED WHEN HE BEAT ME AND WAS HIGHLY DEPRESSED!! MY FATHER OFTEN BROUGHT SERVANT GIRLS AND BOYS TO OUR HOUSE TO DO THE HOUSEHOLD CHORES. I WORKED AS A CHILD LABOR IN A TOBACCO RELATED INDUSTRY WHEN I WAS EIGHT YEAR S OLD!I WAS MADE TO ROLL THE CIGARS FOR MEN WHO WORKED AS CIGAR ROLLERS. THEY USUALLY BEAT ME IF I DID NOT ROLL THE CIGARS VERY PROPERLY. I WORKED FOR AN YEAR AND PLEADED TO MY MOTHER THAT I MUST NOT BE SENT FOR THAT JOB AGAIN.YOU WOULD HAVE TO BE CROSS- LEGGED AND SIT UPRIGHT FOR HOURS TO GET THE CIGAR LEAVE FROM...